urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez Angie Angie 2004-08-16T06:19:11Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:10788 2004-08-16T06:19:11Z 2004-08-16T06:19:11Z Well, Nevies 5 months old tomarrow, i've finally gotten used to her always being by my side, it's a new experience having a baby. It really is. But it's made me into a strong person, a stronger woman...We all gotta grow up sometimes, and she was definatly a blessing from God...like God opened up the clouds and threw her down to me saying "Open those eyes Angie, there's life far more harder than you've ever experienced" He gave me a taste of struggle, but i rose above that...with god's help..he always saw me through a hard situation...even when i didn't know where my rent would come from...i was scared, but i had faith, and HE saw me through! Keep faith...i'm happy i went through what i did, i was living a seltered life...but eveything is good here in Cali, i miss my family and friends in IL i hope everyone is well. Thanks for listening. Later :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:10677 2004-03-18T05:05:41Z 2004-03-18T05:05:41Z hey, Nevaeh was born yesterday, healthy baby girl 8lb 8oz. Check out my site!! It's www.archangelfoundation.org...sign the guestbook! thanks! love you all<br />ang urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:10385 2004-01-22T22:57:56Z 2004-01-22T22:57:56Z I'm bored at the library...nothing to do...Can't really do anything....I can't wait till this pregnancy is over so i can go back to working out, i look obese, it's so sad...i've never weighted this much in my entire life! I saw a picture of me before i got pregnant and almost cried....there was no basketball stomach....I'll put a picture of me on here soon...not a pretty sight althought.....I am however smaller than every pregnant woman i've seen around here....but anyways its a beautiful sunny day...see ya. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:10170 2004-01-20T23:28:45Z 2004-01-20T23:28:45Z I'm almost 9months....thank god this is just about over, i don't think i want anymore children after this...EVER. well maybe but i don't know...everyone pray for me, because this is the hardest month for me it seems to be dragging on and on....so please pray i stay possitive, cause it's kinda hard to. Anyways its beautiful here in Cali, nice beautiful sunshine....although too cold to go to the beach...:( but soon enough i'll be able to get out and get a tan, I'm lookin kinda white right now :) hahaha. Thanks to everyone for their support in this...love ya all and god bless!! :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:9870 2003-12-26T19:34:45Z 2003-12-26T19:34:45Z hey. Hope you all are doing well. I wanted you to check out this new website and tell me what you think. You are the first ones to see it so be honest. :)<br />Ang<br /><br />www.geocities.com/archangelfoundation_1god urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:9722 2003-10-25T19:33:28Z 2003-10-25T19:33:28Z Hey everyone...i had my sonagram...i'm having a baby girl. I saw my baby's face on the little screen, i would scan it on here for you all to see but... I don't have a scanner...so thats a problem..:) She completely healthy with a strong heartbeat....the doctor said she has a big round head..haha. Anyways I just wanted all of you who read this to know...and i'd apreciate all your prayers for me and my baby. I have a job! maybe not the best, but it's alright for right now, I can't be on my feet that much so this job works until after i have this kid. oh by the way I'm going to name her...NEVAEH....not sure on the middle name yet...any suggestions? anyways NEVAEH is heaven spelled backwards, cute huh? anyways i have to get going now, later everyone. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:9445 2003-10-12T23:34:12Z 2003-10-12T23:34:12Z (in my head) Our God Is an Awsome God It's good here in Cali, maybe a little stressful at times, but definatly good. Sometimes I have the urge to just go out and have fun like I used to, but now that everything is diffrent, i've gotta think about someone eles not just myself. I pray to God everything will work out. I went to church to today. So far all of my medical bills have been paid, now all i have to worry about is after I have my child. God will provide, He's great! I have and ultrasound on the 15 of this month, and since I'm 5 months pregnant I can find out what its going to be....I'm hoping for a girl, but as long as its healthy. I could use everyone's prayers.<br />Thanks!<br />God Bless urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:9162 2003-09-06T22:23:19Z 2003-09-06T22:23:19Z here in Cali again, its hot as hell here. can't say that i miss IL but its just really hot here. looking for a job at the moment, jchillin other than that. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:8706 2003-07-25T19:54:52Z 2003-07-25T19:54:52Z Well I have to say things are getting a little better. Slowly but surely. I've got so much on my mind and the mood swings aren't helping. I'm stuck between staying here or going back to CA. I really want to go back, but i'm still undecided. My first sonagram is Aug 4...so we'll see how that goes. I've just been really tense, and i need to relax a little bit. Any encouraging words would be great. well i better go, i'm tired. later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:8650 2003-07-16T16:02:52Z 2003-07-16T16:02:52Z the music in my head well things seem to be very rough at this point in my life, i should have never come back from Cali, and maybe i wouldn't be in the mess i'm stuck in now. but it was gods plan to put me in the situation i'm in now, so i know my actions were a mistake but the outcome never will be, i'm kinda leaving some of you in the dark what i'm talking about but it doesen't need to be known at this time. I just need to get my mind straight and don't so stressed out over things i can't change. but thats all for now, i could go on and on but i'lll keep it short. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:8353 2003-04-09T02:52:41Z 2003-04-09T02:52:41Z as the sun rises over the beautiful mountains that are in my backyard or the llast rays of sunshine reflect off the ocean into no where. God has blessed us with the beauty this world has but we take it for granted everyday. Our lives will change....my life has really changed in the last month or two with the weird twist of events that seem to pop up just to bring me down, real down....i know He'll never give me too much....just pray for me....its a hard time for me right now. thanks<br />later everyone.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:7959 2003-01-30T17:46:49Z 2003-01-30T17:46:49Z My brother is out of the hospital! I am a christian. Everyone thinks I can't do certain things due to that. Thats not the case at all, I can do anything I want to! I choose not to do certain things. Some feel smoking is against God, but I differ that. I could go on with that one, but I'll leave it at that. but I just feel like people feel thay need to put me down because of my religion, and in all reality, theres no need for that...am I wrong? what do you fel about this? well thats enough for today later everyone.<br />ang urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:7901 2003-01-29T19:19:02Z 2003-01-29T19:19:02Z my brother chris had brain surgery, i was pretty upset and scared, but he's doing ok now, thank God. life is pretty good, I'm in the beautiful state of California, and I'd never leave San Digo, except to visit, and travel other places. Mike is doing good. We both have jobs. I'm a phone interviewer. haha. I'm the annoying person thats calls your house for crazy surveys. It's alright though. The ocean is great. And its warm here, no more snow!! I hope everyone back home is doing okay. I miss everyone alot. well thats about it. Talk to everyone later. <br />Ang urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:7674 2003-01-21T19:32:57Z 2003-01-21T19:32:57Z hey whats up everyone, its been awhile, i finally have unlimited access to a computer now, so i usually get off work and head straight for the computer. if anyone has yahoo messenger my sn is angel_love32. I'm doing good here in San Diego, i'm working alot too. It's so beautiful out here, we're living kinda in the mountains right now, it so quiet and senic. Well i better go, if anyone wants to email me my email address is angel_love32@yahoo.com. anyways catch all of you later. bye<br />ang urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:7324 2002-12-02T19:52:30Z 2002-12-02T19:52:30Z I'm here in San Diego, CA it is great here, so much more to do here than there in peoria, alot of diffrent people i've been able to meet, tons and tons of thrift shops. And i work in hillcrest thats like the gay captial. its diffrent...but its great. i saw the ocean for the first time, that was great, got high on the beach that was cool too. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:7118 2002-06-13T17:21:39Z 2002-06-13T17:21:39Z jagged edge-lets get married Sometimes i just don't know...really i don't...do guys ever think of anything eles but pussy?!?! I'm dead serious....i had this one guy tryin to feel on me and then a few hours later his best friend tried the same thing....it makes me mad...I'm over the whole..'I want dick" stage...i want something serious...i'm tired of games. I'm having a difficult time with my family...All i can do is pray that my family stops falling apart....<br /><br />tears rolling down my face at night..i wonder why god ever put me here, i know he has a reason, its just blurry right now, and i just pray things get better. love you all. later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:6852 2002-06-10T18:12:42Z 2002-06-10T18:12:42Z kia-my neck, my back we come to find love isn't always what its supposed to be, or what its meant to be.<br />We come to find life doesen't always reveal its gifts but also its restrictions...<br />we come to find friends don't always last forever...<br />we come to find the oes we love the most get hurt by us the most...<br />We come to find friendships can always turn into more..<br />We come to find that with a little faith and love people sprout like flowers..<br />I've come to find love, life, and some happiness....<br /><br />Lately its all for other people...all my timme has been spent of doing something for someone....i need a rest, i think i'm gonna have some fun....not to come off like a ho or anything but sexy sounds good right now...i can wait for that...i just wanna have some fun....:)<br /> -ang urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:6564 2002-06-04T04:26:30Z 2002-06-04T04:26:30Z avant-makin good love I'd say that i haven't been in a good mood for the last couple of days...Jason's comming around...or trying to, and i'm not so sure thats a good idea...it makes me mad when i see couples holding hands or kissing...I guess jealous, because i have no one to share those feelings with, maybe I should single, i guess it would save the pain....but who am i fooling, to have someone you can be close and intimate with is one of the best feelings in the world. One benefit is i've grown closer to God, i haven't been in church in a while, i'd like to go, but i'm not sure if i'm ready to take that step right now...well anyways....thats all for now...later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:6395 2002-05-27T03:38:06Z 2002-05-27T03:38:06Z <center><br /><a href="http://www.mutedfaith.com/quiz/qz4.htm" target="new"><br /><img src="http://www.mutedfaith.com/images/air.jpg" border="0"><br /></a><br><br /><a href="http://www.mutedfaith.com/quiz/qz4.htm" target="new">find your element</a><br />at <a href="http://www.mutedfaith.com" target="new">mutedfaith.com</a>.<br /><a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/labile">&lt;º&gt;</a><br /></center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:5983 2002-05-27T03:28:38Z 2002-05-27T03:28:38Z <html><br /><a href="http://www.annoyyourfriends.com/geek"><br /><img src="http://www.annoyyourfriends.com/geek/casual.jpg"><br /></a></html> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:5875 2002-05-23T02:53:37Z 2002-05-23T02:53:37Z so many times i've hurt....so many times i've cried, but tonight my heart hurts bad, i feel like a peice fell off...time and time i ask myself if God will show me to a person to his liking....and when i thought he did...he took him away....well distance wise...alot has happened today....my brother leaves tonight at midnight for the navy and i'm gonna miss him alot, i already said my goodbyes urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:5463 2002-05-21T03:40:39Z 2002-05-21T03:40:39Z its hot in here...in my head Oh its been a long time since i've written in this thingy! I've had so much on my mind...its killin me....<br />My parents have been trippin' out on me lately...and i've been thinking about life and love and people. You know theres always a time when you want someone you can't have. Like they're cool with you but they don't see you beyond that....hmm...maybe its just me. Life has so many ups and downs and freaky twists have their weird way of turning out...but i'll write more tomarrow. <br />peace out.<br />Ang urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:5367 2002-04-17T03:47:17Z 2002-04-17T03:47:17Z the voices that tell me to think.... Two hearts-one mind<br />or is it two minds one heart?<br />I just can't figure it out,<br /> I thought I was smart...<br />THAT'S THE DELIMMA.....<br /><br />But one thing's for sure<br /> I'll stay by your side,<br />It's been a long road;<br /> so many tears and smiles...<br /><br />I want you to hear my soul,<br />And understand this one<br /> I'll love you unconditionally,<br /> Till my life is done........<br /><br />You are awsome as hell<br /> and all the above,<br />You light open my eyes<br />When you radiate your love....<br /><br />How can I find the words <br /> to say,<br />That more than ever I need <br /> you today.........<br /><br />I need your empathy, friendship<br /> concern and devotion,<br />I need your attention, care,<br /> love and emotion....<br /><br />I feel so alone and don't trust<br /> anyone<br />Except for you; my smile, my twin,<br /> my hottie :)...........<br /><br />Please cover me and tell me<br /> I'm yours,<br />then tell me you're mine 3 times<br /> maybe four.......<br /><br />Still two minds-one heart<br /> or is it one mind-two hearts??<br />We've got forever to figure it out,<br /> We're smart.....<br />THATS THE BEAUTIFUL DELIMMA....<br /><br />dreaming is so beautiful, it takes me places only i wish were true..hmm..maybe someday...later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:4825 2002-04-16T03:08:58Z 2002-04-16T03:08:58Z ashanti-foolish I've had alot to think about the last couple of days...i'm talking about things that will drasticly change my future for the good or the bad....<br />here's whats on my mind:<br />Don't let pride get in the way with love, because tho you may love that person more than anything, pride will definatly inhibit your love, this preventing you from at least trying to save your relationship, because it can never be a real relationship if you don't participate wholly. You have to jump in, rather than just testing the waters with your pretty little feet. And if your full of pride, you won't ever jump in, so you have to humble yourself enough to weigh your options and then carry out what your heart feels.<br /> A person should never have to beg for someone's love. Love is something we have the capacity to give freely and in vast abundance. I wish more people would understand that. God gave us love so we could share it freely. Why can't people see eye to eye...not behind you, not in front of you but by your side, in your corner. It's so easy to love someone, so why do people have to play so many games!?!And if they don't want love someone and just want to fuck 'em (excuse the lang.), then why not tell them rather than go through all the drama and hurt someone?!?!<br />just remember everyone follow your heart, ask love what to do and you'll find the answer.<br />anyways...later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:evil_pixiez:4507 2002-04-16T03:08:43Z 2002-04-16T03:08:43Z ashanti-foolish I've had alot to think about the last couple of days...i'm talking about things that will drasticly change my future for the good or the bad....<br />here's whats on my mind:<br />Don't let pride get in the way with love, because tho you may love that person more than anything, pride will definatly inhibit your love, this preventing you from at least trying to save your relationship, because it can never be a real relationship if you don't participate wholly. You have to jump in, rather than just testing the waters with your pretty little feet. And if your full of pride, you won't ever jump in, so you have to humble yourself enough to weigh your options and then carry out what your heart feels.<br /> A person should never have to beg for someone's love. Love is something we have the capacity to give freely and in vast abundance. I wish more people would understand that. God gave us love so we could share it freely. Why can't people see eye to eye...not behind you, not in front of you but by your side, in your corner. It's so easy to love someone, so why do people have to play so many games!?!And if they don't want love someone and just want to fuck 'em (excuse the lang.), then why not tell them rather than go through all the drama and hurt someone?!?!<br />just remember everyone follow your heart, ask love what to do and you'll find the answer.<br />anyways...later